Sometimes I don’t know what to say.
It is difficult to explain.
The words just don’t flow
into my brain and I don’t know
what to say.
And just for a moment, it seems
that each word and its means
suddenly drift away.
Sometimes I say too much.
I lose control and forget to think.
The dam bursts, and my
ship sinks in the blink of an eye.
I bubble up with regret.
My intention was not in vain,
yet the only thing I can seem to do is cause pain.
Why is it so hard to forgive and forget?
It seems that each word,
wrong or right,
can make a room so airtight
that the only way out is through strife.
Do I have to live the rest of my life
searching for the words to say?
Even if it is all ineffable?